Actually I felt that way in the afternoon.
Never though about the suicide thing tho,
and never will... but felt really misserable. The punch line is my way to diminish the bad mood. Seing your reaction made me feel a lot much better. In the way that somehow I felt that you really cared. That was really important. I thought the punch line was so obvious that you'll realize it was intented as such, and now I feel bad about that. I guess I learned that some times it''s bad to joke about certain things. Anyway, thank you

So, in light of that lousy joke, I proceed to slap me just a little, but I just wanted to let you know that I really appreciate you guys. The bad mood I felt was not related to Christmas or anything of the sort. It's just that some times things that happen around me are just too difficult to take lightly.
Hope you forgive me for the lousy joke.
